I like to think I can speak fluent English. Don’t get me wrong; I’m a native Spanish speaker so naturally I do have a bit of an accent. But when I think of having to speak English 24/7 it scares me. Not because I couldn’t do it but instead because I feel like I will loose a part of me. I’m very outspoken, spontaneous, playful and funny in my style of communicating. Also speak with a tone and rhythm. How can you translate that?
Have you ever seen a movie in another language (one that you understood) and then saw it in English? It’s kind of different. Sometimes they translate things that are funny, sarcastic or even ironic in English but in the other language not so much. Or make literal translation of common saying or phrases that makes no sense at all. I feel like I’m one of those phrases that would not make any sense in English.
It’s also like movies where two people from different countries begin to fight. The fight always starts in English but them someone starts shouting in other language because that’s their native emotion language. I think I invented this term but what emotion language is the language that’s in your mind when you have strong feelings like love, anger, sadness and even hate. When you have a rush of any of those strong feeling you think fast so your brain acts fast and you want to say everything that comes just as fast, giving no time to your brain to translate. So it’s easier to say it as it comes to mind, being that your native language.
Writing is different because you have time to look up the proper translation and channel you feelings. Still when you hear the translate version of a song is not that catchy or deep as the original version. I always write in English if it’s meant to be in English that way I don’t let my mind play games with me.
Yes, I believe that with time you become more natural with the other language and express your feelings better. But in my opinion your original you is in another language. Try explaining your deepest thought in another language. Hard, right? But hopefully I’ll all be a process and I’ll get better with time…
I am me in Spanish. Everything else is just a translation.